kiwiv13

This my first entry. I've finally given into the emoness that is livejournal. I figured that it would be good to get some of this out before the new year. It has been an amazing and tragic year. I've lost my oldest friend and have gained many more. I have expirenced new things and enjoyed some of the old things.
This first half of my year was amazing I went to Chicago with the band which as needy as it may sound, was amazing and I hope to return. I really liked the Shedd aquarium and the other museums. I accidently ruined a girls life while I was in Chicago, not to mention missed Laura's birthday. I appologize, but I was doing what I thought was right. I finished up freshman year and went to Australia and New Zealand for three weeks. It was an amazing adventure and I met some people that I will never forget and visited some amazing places while I was there. I learned to surf, ate kangaroo, tripped a lot and stayed in many many hotels. It was amazing but I was ready to come home by the end. I'll see if I can figuure out how to put pictures on here. I came back and went to band camp...always an exciting venture. I was reunited with my friends and relearned how to march.
Sophmore year started in August it wasn't so bad, I was sad that I had none of my friends in any of my classes and nor were there any cool guys in any of my classes except my math class and arguably my debate class...no pun intended. heheee. I hated chemistry and the idiot that teaches it. I've learned to like chemistry and still had the idiot that teaches it. I am pretty sure that he purposely put a 45 on my reportcard. He's that big of a dick. I don't like English, as much as I try to like it. Kinda like tomatoes. I have tried to like them but I just can't. I really like history but unfortunately my teacher is a slacker and I so I think that we don't really do anything. Math is hard but I like it. I like band. I like playing my clarinet. I'm in french 2 and its way too easy. I wish I could just skip a few levels and be in french three with my other friends. Though there are some funny freshmen in my class. That covers school/academics. By the way if you haven't figured it out I act a lot smarter than I am. I like to read but have a hard time just sitting down and doing it. I love Dan Brown and the classics. I play lacrosse. I just started so I really suck..but amazingly I am not as bad as some of the people on the team. I am a big music junky. I love blink-182 and all american rejects along with about a million other bands. I'm a bit of a music snob, it bothers me when people say "oh, i love that band" but really they know the only song that they play on the radio. I really like what I've heard from starting line, hot hot heat, format, the academy is, sum-41, Ben Kweller and a lot of other people. Keri made me an amazing 80's playlist and I listen to it a lot! I like going to concerts.
I consider myself to have friends, not copious amounts or anything, but I choose quality of quantity. Recently my bestfriend, Laura, and I had a huge falling out, by the way I really really like Fall Out Boy. I am not sure exactly what the breaking point was but it had been going down hill for some time. It was bound to end. I am a little sad that it is over, but more angry that I don't know why it was bound for failure and even more prurient to know why we haven't spoken since the event. I don't really know if she doesn't want to talk about or is in the same position that I am undergoing. Thinking about her makes me think of Cake, the band, of which I am a fan of aswell. Anyways if anyone knows why this happenend or maybe why she doesn't want to talk about it, let me know. Or if Laura you happen to read it let me know. But I have been hanging out with a lot of other people and enjoying it thoroughly. But I still miss her. We had a different kind of friendship that I had not had before or have now. Heading away from that mopey topic...
This year has been good and bad but lately mostly bad. I'm sure that next year things will get better. I've already got a lot of concerts lined up, I'm excited.
My mom has been going through a breakup with this guy that she has been going out with for two years and she is taking it hard, and even worse won't stop telling me about it. And is now confident that he still loves her and they are going to get back together. I am not sure of this. But I didn't ever enjoy the fact that he lived here and hope that doesn't ever happen again. I want my mom to be happy but not if it means that I can't walk around the house in my pjs or sit in the living room and watch what I want to watch. It was just a bad situation. My brother, Angelo, recently moved out which has taken a toll with my mother aswell. I'd think after 19 years of him living with us she'd be ready for him to leave. She was happy at first but now she is just doubly sad for Gary and Angelo moving away. Personally I am happy cus we've turned Angelo's room into an office, which I spend a fair amount of time in. I miss Angelo a lot though. He used to bring his friends around a lot and I miss our Halo 2 tournaments. I miss Angelo's guitar playing and how he drove mom up the wall. As horrible as it was it was really really funny. I don't really talk to my dad, he kinda tries but then just ends in failure. It's really kinda sad. I don't really expect anything of him, so it makes it easy for me to forgive him and not stay angry or depressed.
I've just realized how long this is and have decided to stop for now. Now that I have written all of this I feel that I can leave it in 2005 and am ready to move into 2006. Hopefully a year full of awesome parties and undoubtably many tests, quizzes and creative projects, which I despise, because I am not good with glue, sissors, or any other kind of craft utensil.